moonlight’s blog

So everything was going good. Then BAM nothing but bad stuff.

1st- my school cancelled a class I NEED to take next semester. Which brought me down to 3 classes. I need 4 to be a full time student. Here's the punch line.. all the classes are full because it's the end of the semester. On top of that all the classes that I could take conflicted with my current classes.

2nd- the place I get my loans from tell me I have to start paying them back in 6 months because the registrars office has my date of graduation for this saturday. Funny seeing how I'm just completing my third year here.

3rd- I lost my w2 which I need in order to get finanical aid which I need to go to school because the only reason I'm in college is because of financial aid. So I have to track down all of my employers from last year (there are three) and have them send me a copy of my w2 by july so that I can attend college in the fall

4th- and far more important- my landlord decided that she was going to cash my rent check without looking at the damned thing to see that it was dated for the 8th and cashed it on the 5th!!! Now I have $315 in overdraft fees because she's an idiot and neither my bank or she will pay for it because they are both protected by a dumb ass law saying that even if its dated for a certain date the recipient of the check can cash it whenever because its a verbal agreement that occurs between the check writer and reciever. So now I'm out $315 and I owe my new landlord $485 for first months and two weeks by sunday and I owe my car insurance $500 by the end of the month! Needless to say I've been scrapping by money wise and now I'm fucked because someone can't read a fricken check! oh yea I forgot to mention that she tried to blame me because I didn't leave her a note saying it was pre-dated. I DIDNT KNOW I HAD TO BECAUSE NORMAL PEOPLE LOOK AT THE CHECKS THEIR GIVEN AND I FIGURED THAT YOU HAD COMMON SENSE ENOUGH TO LOOK!!!

needless to say I'm in a bad mood. And Becuaw I've been dealing with this all day I haven't been able to study for the final I have tomorrow morning at 8am FML

so im thinking about going to ireland for my internship next summer :)

I know I have been neglecting this website and I'm sorry. This is a pretty awesome place to write stuff down and I shall bring it back into my life! Let's see.. my last post was so long ago and if you are reading this I'm sure you have noticed this difference between this post and my last. A lot of time has gone by and I have grown a lot (figuratively speaking that is).

So right now I'm at the Fitchburg State College (FSC) library because my apartment does not have internet. Oh yea.. I have an apartment. I've been living on my own in Fitchburg since the end of August. Also at the end of August I FINALLY recieved my drivers license and my beautiful 1998 Pontiac Sunfire (Lilly). Unfortunately Lilly was totalled by some lady who was not watching the road in September. But with the bad came the good, I got another car. My baby now is a 2000 Dodge Stratus.

I am currently finishing up my Junior year here at FSC and it seems as if the time is slipping by. I am currently a sister of the Phi Sigma Sigma sorority on campus and have the best Little in the world named Heather. She is like a younger version of myself. Which gets very interesting from time to time :) I currently hold two executive board positions in two of the Greek organizations: Secretary- Panhellenic, Parlimentarian- Greek Council.

As for my personal life. Yes Jimmy and I are still together.. it will be 4 years in July =D and I'm so lucky to have him in my life. We got a kitten together. Her name is Freya and she's a little crazy like me. hehe. My mom and Rob are doing well. My sister is about to take an important step in life that I am excited about. I haven't seen or talked to my dad in quite some time now which is upsetting but there is nothing that I can do about it. You can't make people change. And at this moment in time he does not wish to do so. Which is truely sad because I know he's a good person inside. He just went down the wrong path.

Well I should go. I've typed enough for one night.

My guys

see this photo... lookin at it makes me wanna cry... i remember those days... when we all just hung out and had a good time wit each other... didnt matter wat we were doin, or the drama of the world around us... we had fun. even tho im not gaming and im behind the camera... i felt involved and cared for... it didnt matter if i was playin or not... it didnt matter where we were. cuz we were all best friends. now where r we? rivalries, mistrust, jealousy, and drama... and dont forget about the world tryin to take us away from each other. and unfortunately, i think its working... i used to see these pplz all the time, never got tired of them or aggrivated wit something they did... or didnt do. we used to do things... and now it seems all i ever see is this small bedroom of mine, the inside of cars, faces of those who are hiddin things... we all look so happy... wat happened? idk y ive been like this... like i said in my last post... who knows wat it is...

in exactly 1 month from today im leaving and starting a new chapter in my life. wat ppl dont seem to understand is... just be cuz u start a new chapter doesnt mean all the ppl that were in the chapters before disappear. they might show up less often, but they are always there. u can always flip back a few pages and read wat has happened... and look forward to the end... becuz u kno they will be there... bcuz they always are. no matter wat happens in the world this little group always finds a way. some pplz need to get over certain things and move on. cuz friendship is wayyy more important than the current drama.

i like this vox thing... i feel like i ca write more things down and help keep them straight in my head. i also have an issue wit expressing myself if i am anything but happy... i dont really kno how to do it effectively... so i find writing them down helps. i can sort things out then talk about them. so if i gave u this site... i trust u enough to show u my personal thoughts and feelings...

seein as i only have one friend atm i dont see any real harm im sayin some stuff.... this summer has been ok.... prolly cuz i expected too much goin into it... fam is difficult and friends are confusing... but its nothin i havent dealt wit b4. ive seen jimmy a lot lately... but i feel like i havent hung out wit him in forever... i think i feel this way cuz im leavin in a month, alomst exactly, and i dont wanna go. yet i do. the only thing really keepin me here is jimmy, a few close friends, my mom, and my sis. but in a sense that shouldnt stop me and thats y i chose to go away for school. but i think im treating leaving like im never coming bak. wich i horse shyt cuz i would never leave these certain pplz completely. id go thru hell and hight water to see these pplz... especally jimmy... so y am i acting like this? y am i clinging on so hard? is it becuz im afraid they're gonna move on and find some1 new and cooler to hang out and forget all about me? thats silly tho cuz they wouldnt... they're my bestfriends and the love of my life... so they really wouldnt... so much goin thru my head and i really cant say anything about it cuz thats all ive been talkin about... thats wat ive been holdin on to all these weeks... thats yi get upset easily... or is it? is it something else? a lot of major things have happened this summer... this yr in fact.... maybe it just hasnt registered wit me yet... maybe thats wat im holding on to... memories and old worries... maybe...